Peace

Oh the peace of the Lord is a precious thing. One craves it at all times, even if there seems to be enjoyment in the present turmoil or upheaval. We always come back to that precious stream of life which sounds of rippling water. It envelopes our souls and washes over all pain and discouragement.

Signing off for now........
Trusting

Joyful

Praise God for his joy!!!! I am so thankful for the worship service on Sunday. I was able to worshpi and praise the Lord getting close to his very throne and desiring to press in closer and closer to him and to be near to his heart.

When I worship, that is my goal, to feel the very heartbeat of my Lord, to sense his presence, and to feel his security and peace.

Oh, to know him and to worship him!!!!!!

Signing off for now.........
Trusting

Saturday

I am thankful for this day to be off from school. For some reason, I am looking forward to cleaning, cooking, and doing wash. I feel like that it my acceptance in this house. I guess I feel like "a good mom" would do all those things. Not that I like to do them, but guess I have a vested interested. My husband loves when those things are done and I do long to bless him.

I must once again ask forgiveness for my complacency. I don't know why it is so difficult for me to be happy and praise the Lord? It just seems to take so much work even to be nice to the people around me at work and at my home. There isn't much in the way of joyful praise in my life right now.

God, I ask forgiveness for my lack of feeling, but do trust that deep within, I am committed to serving you. Lord, speak to my heart this day as I go about doing housework and also keep me in check. Bring a healthy humbleness within me.

Thank you for the shoes last night. It was as if they were waiting for me. I thank you for giving me direction for where to go. I also thank you for speaking to my heart regarding restraint. Lord, I pray that you would go with Dave and Ben today. I pray that you would give them wisdom concerning their purchase.

Lord, thank you for not letting us go.

Signing off for now...........
Trusting

Lack of Motivation

Good morning,

I sit here before you with little joy or motivation. I have little peace in my home and lament that fact that my children are always asking for money and I can't give it to them. I lament the fact that my husband is seeming to be bipolar these days. I'm not sure if he is going to be nice or mean. I know he hurts a lot in his body. That makes me grumpy too. I should do a thankful list.

I am thankful that my family is healthy, that I have a car to drive, that I was able to go to my son's drumline show and pay for it. That I have private students that help supplement my income. That I have a husband who can make meals. That I was able to clean the house this weekend. That I was able to sleep on SAturday. That I was able to do a lot of reading for my research paper. That I have a job to go to today. That I am going to get two planning periods today. That the sun is shining. That Jesus loves me and died for me.

Well, if that isn't enough to get me out of the lack of motivation and into the thankful and positive vein. I thank God for his love and mercy, even though I am not where I would want to be right now in my life.

Signing off for now........
Trusting

Comforting with the Comfort we Receive

Good morning,

This is my last day off for Easter break. I am blessed to say that I am feeling relaxed and anticipating going back to complete the rest of my school year!!!

God blessed me with a precious opportunity to minister to a sister in our church yesterday. She and her husband and young son are hanging on by a thread financially. I was so moved to not only hear her story, but to hear her heart and share her burden.

God gifted me with words of prayer that not only were an encouragement to my sister, but also to me. I was able to hear her story and feel her pain. I know if my family wasn't experiencing the very same thing, I would not have been able to fellowship her suffering.

I know God poured out His love and power by his Holy Spirit as I grasped both my sister's hands and held tightly, both of us agreeing in the spirit for God's provision in their lives to sustain and keep them.

These days, it isn't about God's abundance. It's about his keeping power and his grace to keep going. These are hard lessons to learn, but I believe that in the days to come we will need to rely more and more on his provision and supernatural keeping of our very lives.

This past weekend, I spent most of it proclaiming and praising God, even though, in my natural feelings, I did not feel to. I wanted to stand on God's words and praise him even though I didn't feel like it. Isn't that what a sacrifice truly is, giving something that is difficult to give?

I shared the need of my brother and sister in Christ with my husband and we both agreed to gift them some money. Not that we are in any place to do that, except for the grace of God, but I believe not only will it bless them, but also honor my Lord God Almighty!!!

One other thing that I heard from the Lord this weekend was that I was to "dig deeper" as I desire to seek his face and press into him in a greater way. I believe that I will be rewarded with precious heavenly treasures as I follow his lead in meeting him in a deeper way!!!!

Signing off for now........
Trusting

Signing off for now........
Trusting

choosing to praise

Good morning,

I am blessed to be home today and the sun is shining. While I am not understanding many things in this life, I am choosing to praise today!!!! MY GOD WILL SUPPLY ALL MY NEEDS!!!!!

Blessed be his name today and forever!!!!

Signing off for now......
Trusting

Short week

Good morning,

This is a short work week due to the Easter holiday coming up. I don't feel good, very low, physically, but optimistic spiritually.

I cleaned on Saturday and my back did not enjoy that. It is revolting even now as we speak. Yesterday, church was disheartening. We have issues with our worship team. The instrument leaders are not able to stay together. It's very difficult to press in and worship the Lord in situations as such.

I don't know what to say, I guess I just have to let it go, but my insides are screaming that this is wrong. I will lift it up to God in prayer.

Signing off for now............
Trusting